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Malcolm
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Looking In
The more time that passes the more my mind tells me completing the DNA test was a mistake. It would’ve been less stressful if we hadn’t known. It would’ve been an easier pill to swallow if the story we heard all these years was indeed accurate. I think we had already made peace with that… — read more
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Late Night Chronicles
Dad: “Well Shad, I’d hope that they have a heart because it sounds like he had a heart.” Me: Not as optimistic “uh huh” I told him that I noticed another one of the sisters was on the Ancestry DNA portal last week. I did not send a message to her initially because someone in… — read more
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Rabbit hole
So much for being brave… 😆 The day I posted that, I got a Reddit notification from the Ancestry DNA subreddit which shot that confidence down. The post said it would’ve been better off if they hadn’t taken the test and found their birth dad. Turns out he completely abandoned the guy at 2 years… — read more
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Losses
Death puts so much into respective. My grandmas sister passed away earlier this month and this past Sunday was the funeral. I ended up traveling to FL for less than 48 hours to attend the funeral. The days following her passing I was fine emotionally. As the date got closer to say our final goodbyes… — read more
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Bravery
Today is all about being brave. Tomorrow may never come.. ✌🏽 And if it does, it may not be what life used to be. — read more
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Happiness
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Different
Life changed in May 2024 in more ways than one. My ancestry DNA results shook my world and days following that my little brother made a decision that altered the course of our lives forever. After many long conversations trying to make sense of it to anyone who would listen, I’ve come to the conclusion… — read more
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Prayer for You
We’re all trying to cope with what we’ve been through recently. It is not something we can put behind us right now because it’s still on going. I realized that my brother’s unhappiness was not a direct result of our dad’s parenting. He hasn’t seen our dad in over 2 months. If our dad was… — read more
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Different
This year has taken a turn I never thought it would. I’m starting to feel like I’ll never see my brothers again. Almost 10 years ago our dad got full custody of them but now that one is 18 years old and the other is just 3 years shy of 18, he figured a change… — read more
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Harrison
Thank you for visiting me in my dreams last night. Yesterday was 17 years without your bright light on this Earth. It’s wild to think we only had you for 17 years and we’ve lived that number of years without you making us laugh. I wish you were here. Hope you’re resting easy HKC. — read more
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Smooth Like Silk
We were blindsided. We were blindsided by the best outcome – the outcome we’ve wanted all along. Although it’s all that we wanted it’s the first time in a long time I’ve had to deal with so many emotions in such a short period of time. I repeatedly told myself that “I can’t stop the… — read more
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Let It Fall Like Rain
It’s going to hurt bad before it gets better. Alone in this house again tonightI got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wineThere’s pictures of you and I on the walls around meThe way that it was and could have been surrounds meI’ll never get over you walkin’ away I’ve… — read more
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Upside Down
I’m in a nightmare. I have to be… Tomorrow is the day our lives change forever. My heart breaks at the thought of what will be. My heart aches at the thought of what could be. It feels like a part of me has died.. How is this not fixable? How do we accept that… — read more
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To God Be The Glory
Today was a tough day but God is always good. Mediating on God brings me peace and comfort. Without his love I would be nothing. Oh my God, you’ve sure been good to me. Despite our circumstances I’m praising him because he’s still good!! — read more