Last night I didn’t necessarily take the time out to write down what exactly caused me to relate so much to that song by Jhene Aiko. It’s a song I’ve heard so many times but for some reason last night those lyrics resonated in my mind all night. The month of July has always been an important month. We have anniversaries, birthdays and death anniversaries. Yesterday I found myself trying to remember a date that used to have such a significant meaning to me and someone I used to be close with. When I realized I had completely forgotten until weeks has now gone by it caused a wave of emotion to come over me. I felt triggered by the memories. Feeling triggered wasn’t necessarily a bad thing but again I was reminded that moving forward for me has been always leaving everything up to time. I used to always be on the run when it comes to my emotions until they caught up to me and it was too late to cope in a healthy way. Now I’ve learned that if I deal with what I’m feeling time will eventually heal all. Eventually my life will be so past that point that memories won’t be easily triggered. I was surprised at how long it took me to remember the date I was trying to. Surprised and reassured that years ago when I thought I couldn’t live on my own I was wrong. Wrong and most likely super dramatic at that.

“Tryna let the time fly (yeah)
Tryna let the time go by
Tryna let the time heal all
Tryna let the time kill all
Of our memories
All you meant to me
All that history
All that’s history
I’ll calm down eventually”