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Bye 2024

This year was truly one for the books. I wish I would say it’s ending on a high note but I don’t necessarily think that is the case.

This New Year’s Eve has fallen victim to the crappy day tradition as most New Year’s Eves in my experience do.

So much transpired this year but there were some good in there as well. We found my dad’s paternal family and that was the biggest blessing. Although my grandpa has since passed I’m still so grateful to know who his family is and to know that we have all carried pieces of him with us without even knowing it.

Here’s to those who are no longer here with us.

Here’s to 2025. May the new year bring nothing but blessings. God is forever faithful and in control.

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2022

It’s a new year which means more opportunities for growth and change. Although 2021 was just as turbulent as 2020 a lot of good things happened for me and I hope that’s the same for you. If not, let’s aim to make this year your year as well.

On December 11th I married my best friend. We had an intimate ceremony and I’ve just been on cloud 9 ever since. I feel such relief knowing that I’ve found my life partner and we managed to make it official which just opens so many doors for us and our future. I find that I’ve become more motivated since the wedding. Once upon a time having an actual wedding seemed so far out of reach so getting to experience the day and all the events leading up to that just makes me feel like we can achieve anything we set our minds to even if we just have three months to plan and execute the mission.

The stress I felt planning a wedding in such short amount of time was unlike anything else I’ve felt before but overcoming that just proves that as humans we are so much more resilient than we may think. Through all the planning I leaned on my ability to set boundaries and not overexert myself. When I felt I had given my all I was able to clearly state that and take care of myself and that’s something that I’m proud of because there was a time when I didn’t have the courage to set boundaries and take care of myself above all.

After the wedding was over I turned my brain off so much so that I forgot my luggage for our honeymoon. It literally had not crossed my mind once that we set out on our road trip without any clothes until we got to our destination which will be a great story to tell someday. The car ride was filled with laughter, relief and love. It almost felt like we were driving into our future and nothing we were leaving behind mattered which at the end of the day clothes truly didn’t 😉

Praying that this year is filled with so much adventure, bold opportunities, health and love for everyone.

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Nice Knowing Ya 2020

This year was by far one of the most trying for many of us. The global pandemic affected us in more ways than we could have ever imagined. I’ve also learned so much about myself this year as well.

In a year where life as we knew it changed overnight one day in March due to lockdowns I found that this year I craved a lot of “normalcy”. I craved the things that felt comfortable and some of that included people who today are no longer the people they were when they represented what was normal to me.

Four years ago one night in December my world changed forever and while then I tried to hold on to the little I could, this year I realized it was time to let go and finally close chapters I kept rewriting in my head. I held on to promises made that were unrealistic. I held on to someone I was so sure would be around through all my adult years.

As time has gone on I’ve realized that this person served their purpose in my life. The story has ended and there’s no way to rewrite it. We played pivotal roles in each other’s lives at one point but we’ve been on different journeys for years now. I guess I was just never ready to truly admit that our promises were naive. The thing is something can cause a bond to exist but eventually that thing is no longer the most important aspect in either of our lives. When that happens we become people that neither of us recognize. The bond grows thin day by day until it no longer exists and that’s life.

So while I craved that sense of comfortability many of these last 365 days I’m leaving that desire in 2020. It’s best I walk away and leave our promise in the year that caused so much pain and loss for many. A lot of people lost loved ones and friends this year due to Covid-19. A lot of people lost jobs due to the pandemic and a lot of small business owners lost their livelihoods. So in a year where people will forever mourn so much I’m choosing to leave this bond here as well.

This year, I can say in the U.S. with over three hundred thousand people dead from Covid-19, I survived it. Six members of my family survived the virus. Many days this year we saw stories of families losing more than one member to the virus but I was fortunate.

I will eternally be grateful for surviving this thing because many were not as lucky. I will always be grateful that no one in my family had to rely on unemployment insurance benefits at any time this year. I will always be grateful for the ability to have helped those in need this year. I’m thankful for love, health, family, friends and financial stability.

May 2021 bring you nothing but joy, peace, and memories that will repair our hearts after such a cruel year. Cheers.🥂

“Oh, it’s better up ahead
The worst is over now
Remember what I said
Live, you don’t have to look back
But if you ever do,
You know where I’m at” – Gavin DeGraw

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Goodbye 2019

This year and the decade overall has been filled with many ups and downs for me. To make a very long story short I lost myself, I lost friends, I lost loved ones, I’ve been abused, I’ve been the abuser, I’ve wallowed in my misery, I’ve brushed my shoes off and kept walking, I’ve been broken and I’ve been in repair. The repair process has been a journey that I needed to embark on alone and without any of the experiences I wouldn’t have the strength I need to keep going. I’ve come to terms with everything. Everyday I see more and more that all of those things happened for a reason. Reasons that I wouldn’t have understood then but I’m proud of the personal growth and self love that this decade of ups and downs has allowed me have.

One important thing I learned this year is that it’s okay to mourn. Sometimes we grieve the living. Things change.

  • I’m grateful for all the lessons I’ve learned and all the people who were in my life in those seasons of learning. Everyone has serve a purpose whether it’s great or small and I can only hope that I’ve served more positive purposes than negative in the lives of others as they look back on closing out this decade.
  • I’m leaving this decade behind with love and clarity. Something I can’t say I’ve had at the same time before. Here’s to hoping the next decade is even more phenomenal and here’s to hoping we all continue to grow into being more understanding individuals.

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