Preference

When it comes to relationships as we get older some people may feel the need to settle because they feel they’re racing against the invisible clock in our lives. For me, I learn more and more what I want or better yet what I need.

With that being said, I’ve been thinking about how much self control is important to me. I don’t like to be embarrassed in public or anywhere for that matter. I need a partner willing to control and capable of controlling their emotions when we aren’t alone.

Be with someone who cares enough to think about how their actions will negatively reflect on you before everything plays out.

I’m an extremely calm person for the most part. I’m always just going with the flow. I think having someone just as chill about everything would be my best bet. I have a hard time handling people who are always on edge or use anger as their go to emotion for everything that may be seen as an inconvenience. Being humble is a great trait and being able to express meekness is also great. I need someone able to handle their shit in other words.

You Stay x DJ Khaled is a mood for tonight.

Forgiving

I know I’ve let a lot of people down over the years and I’ve apologized where I felt necessary. Every bad decision has made me better. And although I’m forgiven by others for the longest time I didn’t forgive myself. I let so many good people slip out of my life because of my pride. Friendships I should’ve cherished more than I did. Sometimes I miss the way certain things were but not the situation that caused those things to have happened. There used to be a lot of resentment towards myself because of the stupid decisions. But I’ve learned that all I can do is be a better me than I was yesterday. There’s no rewind button and even if there was I’m not quite sure I’d use it.

xxvxx