Trust

“Trust is a difficult thing, whether it’s finding the right people to trust.. Or trusting the right people will do the wrong thing. But trusting your heart is the riskiest thing of all. In the end, the only person we can truly trust is ourself.” -Emily Thorne

Last weekend I trusted someone with some information that was exposed to too many people. It was information that caused my character to be questioned and that really hurt me. Sometimes we say things that we don’t exactly mean and without explanation it looks a lot worse on paper than what was really intended. I spent the entire weekend sulking but through it all I’ve learned that the only person I can truly trust is myself. 2020 has been a year of lessons no doubt and I’m grateful for all the bad and good experiences the same.

Moral of the story is, when you know who you are as a person never let anyone’s doubts cause you to doubt yourself. Stay true to you always.

Murphy

The show that has been getting me through Covid-19 is surprisingly The Good Doctor. The most recent episode I’ve seen caused my thoughts to stray just a little bit. Just as a quick overview, the protagonist has autism but despite that he’s a brilliant surgeon. He’s navigating through different aspects of life, learning to communicate better, love better, listen better, etc. He falls in love with a girl who ultimately doesn’t love him in a romantic way because of his autism. That drives Murphy insane to an extent. He became obsessed with showing her he was capable of being her boyfriend despite his limitations.

Saying all of that to say this, he did not feel that he was enough. It’s insane how unfair love can seem at times. We can’t help who we love and it’s always a gamble because what if the person you love doesn’t love you back? We spend so much time fighting what seem like inadequacies that we miss the important lessons in life. Whether we feel we lack qualities someone’s looking for or if we’re simply just out of their league everyone deserves to be loved minus all the superficial things.

Grief

Grief hits us in waves. Mourning and fighting through grief is not simply black and white. It’s not as easy as just not thinking about the loss or getting over it. Don’t let anyone dictate how you should grieve and mourn a loss. Whether it be loss of a loved one, loss of a friend or friendship, and in general loss of anything that filled a void. We heal on our own terms. Some losses take longer to heal than others and that’s also perfectly normal and perfectly okay. We always need time to truly adjust to a new reality. That’s also okay.