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Keep pushing

I’ve started to accept the reality of a situation I’m in and while it’s definitely sobering I can’t say I’m too happy with how I’m feeling. It’s so hard deciding against what your heart is telling you to do sometimes. Stuck between wanting to follow my heart but knowing I should be rational or so much goes on the line.

They say fool me once shame on you but fool me twice shame on me. I’m a firm believer in once something happens twice that shouldn’t have happened the first time it then evolves from a mistake to a choice. We so easily fall into the trap of constant forgiving and giving chances after chances and it takes courage to stand up and say no more even it if goes against every fiber in your body at the time.

Knowing your worth is important. Never compromise or lose sight of that for anyone or anything. Don’t get lost in the idea of what could be so much that you overlook what’s right in front of you.

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Father Daughter

Today I had a longer conversation with my dad than usual. While everything is going well, I’ve noticed that my dad has issues with self forgiveness. And as I’ve gotten older I find myself going back to a lot of mistakes I’ve made in the past and I’ll replay situations and think of how I could’ve done things differently. It’s not my healthiest trait or tendency but hearing him talk about a decision he made years ago set off a light bulb for me. He stated that he should’ve known better and I have said the same thing to myself recently. Sometimes I’ll remember somethings and I get the urge to reach out to someone and apologize even if I’ve done so before but I have enough self control not to go that far. Despite all the stupid choices and all the things and people I’ve lost because of it I’m still beyond blessed to be living the life I am today.

My dad is my best friend. I learn so much about myself when I’m spending time with him.