Goodbye 2019

This year and the decade overall has been filled with many ups and downs for me. To make a very long story short I lost myself, I lost friends, I lost loved ones, I’ve been abused, I’ve been the abuser, I’ve wallowed in my misery, I’ve brushed my shoes off and kept walking, I’ve been broken and I’ve been in repair. The repair process has been a journey that I needed to embark on alone and without any of the experiences I wouldn’t have the strength I need to keep going. I’ve come to terms with everything. Everyday I see more and more that all of those things happened for a reason. Reasons that I wouldn’t have understood then but I’m proud of the personal growth and self love that this decade of ups and downs has allowed me have.

One important thing I learned this year is that it’s okay to mourn. Sometimes we grieve the living. Things change.

  • I’m grateful for all the lessons I’ve learned and all the people who were in my life in those seasons of learning. Everyone has serve a purpose whether it’s great or small and I can only hope that I’ve served more positive purposes than negative in the lives of others as they look back on closing out this decade.
  • I’m leaving this decade behind with love and clarity. Something I can’t say I’ve had at the same time before. Here’s to hoping the next decade is even more phenomenal and here’s to hoping we all continue to grow into being more understanding individuals.
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