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Nice Knowing Ya 2020

This year was by far one of the most trying for many of us. The global pandemic affected us in more ways than we could have ever imagined. I’ve also learned so much about myself this year as well.

In a year where life as we knew it changed overnight one day in March due to lockdowns I found that this year I craved a lot of “normalcy”. I craved the things that felt comfortable and some of that included people who today are no longer the people they were when they represented what was normal to me.

Four years ago one night in December my world changed forever and while then I tried to hold on to the little I could, this year I realized it was time to let go and finally close chapters I kept rewriting in my head. I held on to promises made that were unrealistic. I held on to someone I was so sure would be around through all my adult years.

As time has gone on I’ve realized that this person served their purpose in my life. The story has ended and there’s no way to rewrite it. We played pivotal roles in each other’s lives at one point but we’ve been on different journeys for years now. I guess I was just never ready to truly admit that our promises were naive. The thing is something can cause a bond to exist but eventually that thing is no longer the most important aspect in either of our lives. When that happens we become people that neither of us recognize. The bond grows thin day by day until it no longer exists and that’s life.

So while I craved that sense of comfortability many of these last 365 days I’m leaving that desire in 2020. It’s best I walk away and leave our promise in the year that caused so much pain and loss for many. A lot of people lost loved ones and friends this year due to Covid-19. A lot of people lost jobs due to the pandemic and a lot of small business owners lost their livelihoods. So in a year where people will forever mourn so much I’m choosing to leave this bond here as well.

This year, I can say in the U.S. with over three hundred thousand people dead from Covid-19, I survived it. Six members of my family survived the virus. Many days this year we saw stories of families losing more than one member to the virus but I was fortunate.

I will eternally be grateful for surviving this thing because many were not as lucky. I will always be grateful that no one in my family had to rely on unemployment insurance benefits at any time this year. I will always be grateful for the ability to have helped those in need this year. I’m thankful for love, health, family, friends and financial stability.

May 2021 bring you nothing but joy, peace, and memories that will repair our hearts after such a cruel year. Cheers.🥂

“Oh, it’s better up ahead
The worst is over now
Remember what I said
Live, you don’t have to look back
But if you ever do,
You know where I’m at” – Gavin DeGraw

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Election 2020

Today has been nerve racking. My anxiety has been through the roof so I’m hoping for the best. I hope that no matter what the results of this historic election comes out to be that there will be less chaos in America. That’s really all I want. Less chaos and a country that feels safe for you and me. At this rate I’m hoping to fall asleep soon since we definitely won’t know who won tonight. Let’s see how President Trump handles that.

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Chants

Normally, I don’t focus much on politics or at least I try not to. The current administration is hard to avoid though. Last night there was a rally where supporters of the president chanted “send her back” and that struck a nerve with me for some reason. Being someone who migrated to these great states of America or once great states? It’s scary. I see family and friends agreeing with the go back rhetoric and I wonder what their logical reasoning is for how this is an acceptable way to behave in the year 2019. Some say it has nothing to do with race but I feel that the second the situation can be interpreted as race motivated the conversation should end. The conversation should be about something else. For me even if the president does not mean it in terms of race it opens up the door for those who mean it as a race thing to take that on act on it. It opens a door that brings us back 70 years. The race issue in this country still has not been handled the best way it can be. There are still unresolved issues and discrimination that happens everyday and for that reason we can easily go back to what it was before. It opens up the door for people who have an issue with people of different races to feel comfortable telling others to go back. In the year 2019 no one should feel comfortable saying that to another person and the president is leading the way on allowing this whether he means to or not. Congress fears that impeachment will propel the president in terms of the 2020 election but by doing nothing they’re just as complicit in allowing the racial division to again widen in this country.

I fear for the future whether it’s two more years or whether it’s four. This will not be easy to come back from.