Life changed in May 2024 in more ways than one. My ancestry DNA results shook my world and days following that my little brother made a decision that altered the course of our lives forever.

After many long conversations trying to make sense of it to anyone who would listen, I’ve come to the conclusion that my dad and I will never fully recover from this. Everyday I feel his pain. I feel the void in his heart. I feel the regret and confusion.

We found my dad’s birth family on his father’s side after many years of thinking we had the story right but I haven’t found the courage to truly reach out because I know we can’t handle another round with rejection and abandonment.

My desire is to get to know the family. My desire is to learn of our cultural ties with India. My desire is to have them welcome us with open arms but it’s difficult when the key piece of the puzzle is not here to confirm our suspicions.

I always wrestled with my sense of identity and finding out the DNA results brought up some old emotions. Praying for a breakthrough.