It’s been a rough week and it feels like crap just keeps piling on. Still not much of an appetite but the crazy vivid dreams/nightmares we were having died down. Mornings are filled with anxiety and struggling to just make it out of the house.

At this point I’m not sure how much more things can go down hill before they look up. The last three days there has been severe bouts of depression. Questioning everything. The lack of an appetite is starting to negatively affect us. No surprise there, we’ve both lost a significant amount of weight, brain function has decreased as a result.

Up side, for the first time in almost 6 years I can see abs again. Yay? Not the healthiest but trying to turn lemons into lemonade or whatever the saying is😆

Today we learned that our options aren’t very cut and dry. There’s no right or wrong way to move forward and while that is scary I felt we got the best advice we could’ve gotten given the circumstances. She was very straight forward and honest and not just after our money so no regrets on that.

The days are longer it seems. More time idle = More mind racing. How is this fair?

Conclusion, life isn’t fair.