Today I had a longer conversation with my dad than usual. While everything is going well, I’ve noticed that my dad has issues with self forgiveness. And as I’ve gotten older I find myself going back to a lot of mistakes I’ve made in the past and I’ll replay situations and think of how I could’ve done things differently. It’s not my healthiest trait or tendency but hearing him talk about a decision he made years ago set off a light bulb for me. He stated that he should’ve known better and I have said the same thing to myself recently. Sometimes I’ll remember somethings and I get the urge to reach out to someone and apologize even if I’ve done so before but I have enough self control not to go that far. Despite all the stupid choices and all the things and people I’ve lost because of it I’m still beyond blessed to be living the life I am today.

My dad is my best friend. I learn so much about myself when I’m spending time with him.